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Friday, July 18th, 2003
3:19 am	Omg wow! Today I was smoking pot with an old friend at work.. behind this small hill.. Thens like we see blue lights flashing on the mainstreet. It turned out a cop pulled someone over whilst we were burning! :O! We then got super paranoid and took off down a small trail to smoke alittle more... aherm. Eventually we decided to head around teh building to our cars, so's to make it look like we just closed teh store and stuff. Thankfully, he was gone... hoorah! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 1st, 2003
9:17 am	Well, the day has finally come. Today I take my last two G.E.D tests, and soon after head to my newly aquired job at Wendy's. It'll be good to have some cash inflow now. It's funny, I feel so much more confident and stuff now that I'm out doing shizzat. Kinda neat. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
3:35 pm	jeffrey Magic Number 18 Job Computer Nerd Personality Procrastinator (If The Apathy Doesn't Kill Me) Temperament Pussy Cat Sexual If I Have To Likely To Win A Nobel Prize Me - In A Word Unique Colour Brought to you by MemeJack Well, see I did have Jeffrey as a preferance at first because it said Singer for occupation. However, sex was listed as gay, and I didn't like that. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 12th, 2003
3:21 am	Christians compatibility with me. mestizo 91% How compatible with me are YOU? You should try this too, Caleb! Show everyone we were once twins seperated at birth. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 27th, 2003
1:43 am	Well, so it's known. That AA post happened to be while I was recovering from being drunk, after a huge fight with Beth. Silly thing is... I only get aggressive when I drink when she's around! Mostly because she over acts every battle we get into! Everything she does is no big deal! The things I do are HUGE deals! I hate lots of things fyi. Hate is good. Oh do I love to hate. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 22nd, 2003
9:12 am	AA Ok. I Jeff Grady, hereby swear to nevar drinks again while with Beth. It's lead to me to nothing but mistcheif and grief. I loves Beth and she loves me. So's I quits drinkin'. Specially for now!!! Fuck alcohol! It pisses me off. A lot. Why? Try almost having what you love dearly taken away from you. Then, and only then ask yourself why. If you can't ask yourself why, then understand why I can't drink, dear reader. Understand that I love what I have got right now, and shall continue to love so till I am not able to anymore. For Jeff. Jeff. Jeff Jeff... You drank nearly 13 beers by yourself tonight Jeff.... Jeff. Jeff Jeff... You drank nearly enough to end your happiness. Is there a point apon which drinking will cure happiness? Yes. Yes I say. Yes there is. There sure is Jeff, dear Jeff. If only you could have seen it before, Jeff. Poor Jeff.... Today, I nearly wrecked a wonderfully perfect thing. Nearly so indeed. I'm looking up to myself here to not drink again. I could really use some support, if anyone has anything to say.........(?) To: Those of you who have gone through/going through/wanted to be in AA.. From: A person who wished he had of before it went too far. Today, I realised what alcohol can do. I realised it, and feared it after it occured. I fear it for everything it's worth thinking over. I fear it for life. Mine, and hers. Mine..? Simply because it's MY life I'm wasting. Hers..? Just because she knows what it leads to, and beyond. Today, I solemnly swear to eradicate alcohol from my premises. If any of that is spelled correctly. Anyways, you get it. Yeah, so I give it up. It's nothing but a waste unless you're celebrating (on rare, circumstancial(sp?) ocasions. Even then... I don't suggest getting that trashed. 'Specially if you love the person. So go on. Go on and live your lives. Just live it without an alcoholic past/future. Trust me, it's one of those things that's fun for awhile... Then it just hurts... It really hurts more than one. Take it from me, I can never stress something I'm hypocritical about more than this. Or used to be atleast... (other than smoking ((cigs/weed))) 1,2,3,4,5,6--------- Where does it stop? It doesn't stop untill thier gone. I assure you. It really can't stop, untill you do. For the people you love.. Quit being what you're not. AA saves lives. I no longer doubt. Jefftor out. Hopefully I'll be here to hear you. (Post anything about the subject, please.) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:38 am	Ok, so somethings are worked out.. GOOD! I hope things continue to be this way (Comment on this)
1:11 am	I"MS SO MAD CAUSE YOU ASK ME THE SAME QUESTION WITH DIFFRENT WORDS WHEN YOU TRY TO HELPS ME! Why is that all I hear when I show support, like when she's trying to find out why her sims is crashing? It crashes randomly... After she downloaded some random shit from diffrent sites to use. If you can, please... Please tell me diffrent reasons why the sims might crash after such a circumstance.... Or I'll have to commit murder. Ok, I lied. She'll just be mad at me untill we fight about it, then she'll be ok for two days.. Then... The cycle begins again. Is there no end? I'm affraid theres only one.. I know what it is.. Yet I don't know... If I want to do it. (Comment on this)
12:45 am	3 beer, 4 beer, 5 beer, 6 beer. This is FUCKING BULLSHIT! I'm not tolerating this unexxplainable/intolerable/rediculous anger from her anylonger. Something has got to be said, again.. I do so much to re-ensure my partners well-being. It's time to reap some rewards. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 17th, 2003
5:47 pm	After talking to Caleb, and thinking to myself last night, I decided to not discuss the current issue with Beth untill we sober up. Thankfully, things got worked out this morning. Hopefully, things will stay this way. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 9th, 2003
12:57 am	*sniff sniff* mmmm bacon.. Holy shit.. Today was a fucking fright night! I had just gotten some redflower from my friend to deliver to another friend.. Then... weee-oooo weee-ooooo! I get pulled over for speeding, and as the cop walks to my car he pushes on the hood. At my window he immiately asked for my lisence, and questioned me on if I knew why he pulled me over. As soon as I pass him my lisence and reg. he asks me if I've had, or are in possession of marijuana. Ofcourse I said no, because tee-hee... I wasn't carrying marijuana! Yay. Then ofcourse he goes back to his car, while Beth whispers "Good thing you gave me the redflower.." (Since they were guy cops they couldn't search her.) Well, time passes and he comes back over, and asks if I have any marijuana once more. Replying "no" again, he asked me "Then would you mind stepping out of the car so I can search you?" I nodded with a polite, "ofcourse." (Oh yeah, I remembered to say "Sir" alot, so's to offbalance my tattooed and peirced, insane nature) Anyhow, I stepped out, and he searched meh. (I was going to tell him I placed marijuana inside my rectal cavaty, and have him go in for a look, only to tell him while he's prodding that I must have left it in my other ass.) After all that was said and felt up, the cop who searched me asked if he had given me back my license & reg. Saying no, I looked at him. He, inturn, looked at his partner. rofl'ingly enough, his partner pointed to his friend's belt, and said "There it is, behind the jelly donut." Well, then he returned my stuff, and said sorry for the trouble, and thanks for cooperating. No ticket gained. I personally think they just decided to pick on me, because it's near the end of the quota. I saw like, 6 cops in 30 minutes. Bastards. Ok, disclaimer time. Ha ha ha. You can't do a thing. Current Mood: good Current Music: FisherSpooner - Emerge (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 1st, 2003
2:20 am	God of sex I r Woo-doggay. Life = good. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 26th, 2003
8:33 am	Ok,I've got things to post here... Yet... I will wait till I get home. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 25th, 2003
11:32 am	Dear journal, What's going on in the tangled webs of my dear beloved's head? Truthfully, I don't know. Acting angry because she gets bored at home, also angry at silly things. "Jeff, you've asked me how to junction your GF's a couple times now WTF I'M SOO MAD RIGHT NOW AT J00. Telling me shit like "Omg, stop being such a nerd and you might have more friends!" Pfft. I don't really want more "friends." Or, as I like to call them: "People I generally hate, but can stand when they have something I want." Excluding those few (You know who you are) I'm an anti-social jerk. Oh well, get over it. Ah, clean slate. Jebus If things continue to grow at this alarming rate, I might have to think about my life right now, without her. It may make things easier, or harder because I'd have this stupid urge to wonder if she's ok, or if she's being treated badly by another skinhead fucking abusive, cock-impaired shitbrick. Guess we'll have to see. Jeff out. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 18th, 2003
11:40 pm	Sometimes I wish I could type with my mind, instead of using my hands as a tool. Today, I realised what it is to make that person you've given everything for feel happy. It's a feeling I can't express in anything except my mind.. Words simply cannot say what it is. I guess I just wrote this down so I can remember it, untill the lj servers crash someday. Love you Beth. I'm glad you finally found your father. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 15th, 2003
11:55 pm	In the news today, my ex girlfriend had her mom call me, and threaten me with legal action because of things on a website, with a nifty disclaimer. I think that's pretty silly, a 22yr old girl who acts 5 has her mother threaten me with a lawyer, because she's being picked on in a forum by people she's never, and will never meet. I guess the world takes all kinds. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:52 pm	A big day, for a little girl. Hrm, this is pretty nifty. Beth's biological father who she's never met sent her a letter for her birthday, telling her he's been sober since 86, or something, and that he's sorry he missed her childhood. While I think that's awesome it happened, I can't help but feel the paranoia of thinking he's some lunatic out to do something bad to her. Just because of her past I guess. I dunno, it's probly just because I never met the guy either, and stuff.. and the fact he had to mention he's been sober. That part gets to me, cause I'm not sure what to think. Side note: I'm happy Beth's happy. She told me today her life is finaly perfect. I hope things work out the way she wants them to. I can just immagine what's going through her mind right now, it must be pretty awe-inspiring, yet at the same time strange, and foreign. Kind of funny to think that if that happened to me, I probly wouldn't care since I have no soul. Which kind of sucks, because I'm unable to show emotion to her about family bs and such. Man, I really don't have a heart. Or do I just need to find something to pour my soul into besides music? We probly won't ever know. ~Jeff (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 9th, 2003
3:44 am	Holy shizzat You know, Jeff. During the last few months you've felt pretty down, after losing erinn and all. Then, all of a sudden I talk to a new friend I meet in a maine chatroom who lives where I used to, ask if he knows any single, cute girls and poof! He tells me of this girl, Beth. So I tell him to give her my screen name for Yahoo! A few days later I get a message from her. Oblivious as to who she was (from the various substances entering my lungs/liver) I say hello back.... 6 hour conversation, with multi-communications and various things we agree on. I knew then... I was falling for her. Maybe it's the way she thinks. Maybe it's the way she talks. Maybe it's the way she makes me feel.... Maybe I'm just falling in love. We've spent the last few weeks together at my house, and have never had a dull moment. Theres an ever-lasting supply of conversational dealies when ever she's around. It's so cool that she's uber intellectual, it'salso nice to date a smarty instead of a stupid for once. She can sing, too. Kind of like Vibeke, but quieter. alittle lower on the key. Maybe she could hit it if she tried. Hrms. Teh intellectual conversations = good ++ Sure, some things of her past bother me... but meh, what can you do? Anyhows, I think this girl + me = long time. Well, Atleast I hope so. (Granted if he was here we wouldn't be) If that makes sence to me later, good.. If it doesn't... Oh well I guess? Hrm....... I really have to learn to stop saying what's on my mind at that exact moment. Since I feel kind of stupid when someone picks on me for expressing my thoughts at a given time. It's sort of weird... Since someone will be talking about a subject, and I'll burst in with wtf ever is on my mind about that subject, and expect an intellectual answer/answer I can relate with, yet I get an answer that I never expected because the answer resides in thier thoughts.. Not mine. Ok, maybe I got off subject there alittle.. Oh well. This is my journal, not yours, right? Wonder why it's called life, if all you want to do is die? Me too. (nothing to do with subject.. Just a good question to ponder). (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 1st, 2003
1:38 am	Choices, decisions, thoughts about a single, tiny red object. What will she choose? (Comment on this)
Friday, February 28th, 2003
12:40 am	Many things have happened lately. Nothing bad at all, I'm rather surprised actually. Meeting a member of the opposite sex you share alot of things in common with sure is a cool feeling, I can see why Caleb always has such a fun time talking with Abbey. I've got a good feeling about things to come, alot of which has to do with my band. I think that mayhaps I've found a girl singar for us, but Caleb and I still thinking it over, and so is she. I've got the most wonderful feeling right now.. No one can fucking stop us, we'll blow the fuck out of the music industry and our fans, and hopefully put MTV out of business once people realise they don't play much real, good music on that crappy channel. Sing loud, sing proud. (Comment on this)